Screws

Eye realli dunt kno wat to do. Eye'm stuck. Eye have to cut out most things eye wuld lyk to say, cuz acoarse, Joey will read it. N go cry to my mother bout it. N all this booshit. So ugh wateva.

Wow

Wow, did eye realli stay up all nite tawkin ta Derek? Es quite nawce ta hear he's tryna get his lyf tagetha. Eye'm soo prouda him!! Eye juss hope he actuallii dus sumthin. We've tawked since twelve till now. He was gunna come ova, well.. Eye was gunna take ma mums car n go get him. He says he wunts ta come ova aroun six. So we'll sea wut happens. Hes juss all paranoid bout whos gunna kno he's here. But its realli no ones business. Eye still care fa him. N dude, hes actualli txting me! So hollaaa, thas tooo kool! Eye'd juss lyk ta sea him more. Maybee suma mii gud will rub off on him? Eye juss wunt him ta be well. Eye think he juss needs ta be aroun gud people. Eye think eye'm gunna go get him now. Wow. Its five in tha mornin. :o

Eyes lit.

Eye'll breathe you in, and breathe you out. 'It's not the end, The earth has no swallowed me yet.' May peace be your journey.

Blinded

Well, Eye dunt realli kno wut ta say. Tadai waz alrite. Skool wusnt too bad. Eye only go fa tha art class. Eye dunt think eye wuld bee realli interested if eye didnt have art. Mii thoughts and mii mind is kinduh ina fog. Everythin is juss blurrry. Eye dunt kno wut eye wunt. Seems lyk eye'm juss not readii fa this or anythin. Eye'm so confused. Eye wish eye knu wut ta do. But eye dunt. Eye honestly dunt even think eye'm even well enuff fa this relaysionship.. Eye think eye juss need sum space. Eye need time ta bee alone. Eye dunt even kno how ta bee alone, cuz eye never am. Its juss stressful..Eye dunt wanna breakup widd him, eye juss need ah break man. Seems lyk eye culd never juss bee on mii own widdout sumone there. Eye juss think it wuld be better if eye had sum time fa myself.. Eye dunt kno wut ta do. FUCK.

reality

Ah realli dunt kno wut ta thenk at tha momunt. Eye kinda feel lyk un old purson er sumthen. Eye tawk bout marrage n havin kiddiez n all that stuff. AH'M UNLII SEXTEEN! Cuz ah wunt et all but eye thenk ahm begginin ta scare maself.. Eye shuld b enjoiing lyf n havin fun n all that gud shet teens du. But ahm so cot up wit mi future that eye have no tym fur that. Ah'd lyk ta juss b F R E E, but eye dunt wanna ruen a gud theng. Gawd ahm sucha fuhked up ked. Eye juss dunt wunt aniithen ta get ruen'd. Eye dunt wanna end up uhlone. Eye hope theeze feelens pass. Eye feel bad, cuz eye dunt even kno ef ahm readii ta settle down er be tyd down. Et juss sownds scarii ta mii. Dam. How cahn eye luv thes boi thes much. Eye dunt kno. Stuff happens n thengs luk gud n grand n all that wundafool shet cumz widd it. But eye DU luv him. N wen yu luv sumone yu stick widd em.

Ahhhh crap ma sponsor wunts a graditude list. HUMWURK! D:
Eye seen thes cummin. Har har

Well, ahm tyrd. Gunna trii n sleep.
Dream sweet

folkin betch

Well arnt yu ah li'il fokin shet!! Ah cahnt buleeve yu thenk yu cahn leye ta mii.
Ah mean, reallii? Y wuld yu have ta leye bout leevin? Yu shulda juss told me she waz
wayting fah yu. Insted uf keepin me en yor presense. Maybee yor juss ah fayk lyk thay sed yu wur. Ah gess ah juss lykd yor attenshun. Lyk thar wuld eva bee ah yu n mi. har har har.
How cahn ah evn trust yu? Fok yor eyez n wurdz fo drownin mii en filth. Yor juss lyk tha rest. Wuh ah shaym. Dunt thenk fa wunce yu cahn keep mii unda yor spell.

Pins n Needles

Yur so devine, tha way u speak so slow n soft.
Tha way everiithing is strange in yur eyez.
Those black eyez.
How u pulled me ovr for just a taste,
made u late, says the rabbit.
Simply late, but dusnt wanna go.
Dreaming of a big bed to take me on.
Eye try to leave, yu pull me back.
Yu must leave, says the rabbit.
Yur late, he's late.
One last kiss n eye wolk ahway.
We say gudbye.